Feel pressure to post....

Now that I have this blog (and really I just started playing with this to see how I could incorporate a blog into a project at work....), I feel compelled to post something, anything.... But what to post? It's January - New Year's resolutions worth posting about? I guess that's good enough.

Ok, so this year for the first time I did not write down New Year's resolutions. My hubby and I make a point to talk about goals and such on/around New Year's Eve religiously - we make these elaborate goals and lists in a fresh, new planner (I know, we're party animals!). 

This year, the resolutions were more of the same... try to improve body and soul, etc. Per the agenda, we discussed financial goals and revisited our budget (shudder!). The one thing that was different this year was the fact that I decided not to write anything down. Now, I'm a list maker. I enjoy making lists, completing tasks and most of all, scratching things of the list. Heck, I add things to lists just so I can cross them off! I wouldn't be able to keep things straight in life if I didn't have a list - just wired that way I guess. 

But for some reason the thought of a list of New Year's resolutions hanging over my head is just too much - I know I'm going to fail. So, I make the silly list on New Year's Eve (or other designated time for the annual ritual) and then proceed to have guilt whenever it crosses my mind throughout the year. It's a vicious cycle and this year I decided to end it! No more list for New Year's resolutions!

And just like that it's like the curse was broken! Suddenly, I actually enjoy accomplishing the things that hubby and I discussed on New Year's Eve! I like taking care of my body and soul and I don't have guilt or anxiety - strange how freeing not making a list can be! Amazing how that list, that annual ritual, was holding me back! 

I know it's only mid-January, but I have hope that this year will be different. This year will be the year that I actually accomplish goals. I'm sick of planning and talking, I'm ready to start doing. 

So, I hope 2009 is a year of doing - a year of accomplishment. And, maybe I'll start a new ritual. Maybe on New Year's Eve 2009 I'll make a list of the things I actually did - then cross them off one by one in celebration of a productive year! Or, I may be depressed that yet another year passed me by and I didn't accomplish those goals. No! I will not that let happen, for 2009 will be a productive year and I will celebrate the accomplishments... Or at least I'll get a running start... oh my... feeling some pressure now. Here's hoping for a productive January - we'll see what February brings...